Wednesday, April 24, 2013

The Dreaded C ..

  The last two months have been a stressful time that we really didn't anticipate. Our move into a nicer, healthier house was to be fun. It was until I woke up three weeks ago with severe pains in my tummy, a place that has been operated for colon cancer and was already at stage three. What a sudden blow that it has forced it's way back! Luckily I believe I can beat it again! I immediately resumed all the anti cancer stuff. Already today I feel some improvement slight change in my level of energy and I have less pain. 
   To date I have had great cancer checkups but somehow around Christmas time I felt some pangs and I wasn't feeling right. I had pneumonia and recovered but then a weird sensation of 'unwellness' kept popping up. It included some sudden hot flashes unrelated to menopause ( because I have long passed that phase). It became clear to me that the colon and lymph nodes were acting up because some tender spots especially on my left side in my belly area, my arm and leg joints and armpit became more painful. Cancer, that awful growing beast, was creeping back into my life just when I was very excited about a change in our home. Also I wanted a more active life style and I really needed to adopt it not just for me but Buddy too.
   And next came another hurdle, that flash of a severe chest pain! I had never had one before. This just came suddenly. Quickly I had cardio tests done and it was discovered that I have a blockage to the heart. While all these episodes are a part of aging I am taking care to have a speedy recovery. I pray that I can be around for many more years. I just have to get better. Hubby's rooting for me as is Buddy.
  For a break tomorrow Buddy and I are meeting up with Tina, his one time babysitter when he was just 6 and she was 12. An older blog, Tina, can be found if you wish. We recently visited her at Princess Margaret Hospital where she was recovering from a bone marrow transplant to help her recover from years of Hodgkins Lymphoma. She's home now and doing very well.
   Lunch will be fun.
   I'm so sorry that I have not been around to visit your many posts but I shall try again to be there as soon as I am better. Pray that I shall recover quickly. I do so enjoy the photos and stories you all share. They are very meaningful to me because you have taken time to read my work too. Sharing is a big part of my way of life.
   As April draws to an end I hope that the many days of cold weather and record breaking rainfall will also halt a bit for the sunshine. It's rays just tend to help me really enjoy the renewal of life as the gardens become green, plants bloom and wildlife takes up it's local residence.
   I'm hoping to sit in our new yard watching hubby grill and Ellie chase the bugs while Buddy laughs at her playful ways. But the stones are still wet from snow and rain. Let's hope May will be better.
   And where are you? I wish to meet up with you again too.


So please will you stay around while I get back on track. Your prayers and words of encouragement would be so appreciated at this time.

P.S. I just noticed that I posted this on Rolli"s birthday. My brother died in 1978 at the age of 30 and I still miss him. There's a blog about him too. Tins knew him.

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  1. Dearest Heidi, you were on my mind the other day so I'm very glad to hear from you. I am very sorry you've had to go through so much and that the dreaded C is back. I will say some prayers for you and your family. I'm glad you already have awareness of what helped you last time and I'm sure it will help you this time too. Hugs. xx

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  2. In terms of our weather, we've had a very slow start to warmer weather and lots of rain too. I haven't begun my garden for that reason but hope to dig up the weeds and add some manure and top soil in the coming week or two. I know it's been coolish in the east. I hope you are going to get some warmer weather now too so you and Buddy can enjoy some walks amongst the flowers. Hugs. xx

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  3. Dear Heidrun,

    I am so sorry to hear of your health problems but I admire your stalwart attitude. Going through it all over again, with the added heart problems to make matters more difficult, cannot be easy.

    I hope and pray that you will get through and that Buddy and your husband give you all the support you so deserve.

    Once spring arrives in full force life should become more pleasant anyway.

    Good Luck and best wishes. And don’t worry too much about commenting on blogs, they’ll still be around when you’re feeling better.

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  4. My dear Heidi

    Damn.....I am so sorry to hear of your health problems. I am already deep into my prayers and wishes for your return to good health. I will not stop until I hear that you are fine again.

    I also wish you a bright and warm Spring. We are lucky here in Calif.....a beautiful Spring has already sprung.

    Do get better, ya' hear!

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  5. I am so very sorry to hear this, Heidi, and will pray for your recovery.

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  6. Oh, dear. I am so sorry to hear about all this, but as you have already said, you beat it back before, and you can do it again. I'm hoping you will be sitting in the yard soaking up the sun's rays any day now. You have my prayers and sincere wishes for a quick recovery.

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  7. My dearest, Heidi,
    Sorry to hear that C has returned, it does help that you know the drill. How many can say that? I hope you get back on track and feel lots better soon.
    Will they do something about the blockage or have they put you on the drugs for that? The blockage I had on my heart is gone after taking Lipitor. I thought my doctor was nuts at first.
    I know you will take care of yourself, but I am sending my best vibes, anyway.
    )))HUGS(((

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  9. Oh My Goodness.... I just came from the other blog --and hated to read this. I am so very sorry, Heidi. Made me cry... BUT--knowing you and your wonderful attitude, I'm sure you can 'beat' that cancer again... May God bless you --and place you under his wing... God Bless Buddy also. I'm sure this is hard for him also.

    Hugs and Prayers,
    Betsy

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  10. I will be thinking of you and hoping your recovery is swift and complete.

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  11. Dear Heidrun, I'm so, so sorry to learn about your health problems. That is so worrisome and I want you to know that I will send you healing white light and see it surrounding your body.

    Your fortitude in the midst of all that is happening in your life is so admirable. But then, I think from reading your blog, that you have always had great strength and resolve. You are truly a valiant woman.

    I'm been away from reading blog due to a very minor ailment. But I want to assure you that I'll keep following your two blogs. Your story and Buddy's speak to me. Peace.

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  12. What a cozy-looking new yard you have, Heidrun! I hope you are spending these warm days outside taking in the fresh air and sunshine. It's summer here!! Flowers and leaves in full bloom.

    Not good news about your health. But you seem to have a wonderful, positive, and take-charge attitude. You will get better!

    Sharing is a way of life for me too. I so appreciated all of your support when I was going through some very emotional times.

    Now, it's your turn and you know your blogging buddies are all in your court.
    Sending lots of love and light to you and your family.
    God bless.

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  13. Hallo liebe Heidrun,
    ist meine Email angekommen? Ich hoffe, ich hatte die richtige Email-Adresse von dir.
    Liebe Grüße,
    Christa

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  14. Me again, trying to catch up, seems I've gotten involved with Facebook and don't get around to blogs as much as I use to.

    You mentioned your brother passing at 30, my sister passed at 42, which has been about 1983, and for the first year, I would go to the phone to call her and pick it up and then remember I couldn't do that any longer. The first five years were the worst. My Mother said losing a child is the worse death a person can experience, no matter the age of the child. We all still miss her.

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